| I'm not dead yet... |
[06 Jan 2009|10:23pm] |
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Just really busy. So really i dunno if i am back yet with school and work and yada yada yada but i really dint want to go a whole year without posting if only for my own sake.
i want to make it my new years resolution to keep updating this but i doubt it...but even if i dont post im still lurking arround and commenting...just not on myself lolz!
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| What the fuck ever |
[02 Mar 2008|08:10pm] |
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So when did it become my fault that my parents have lost the ability to communicate?
My parents fight. A lot. I mean they have been married for 21 years, have known each other for 26, and all of a sudden they just start bitching at each other. And the worst part is that my mom doesn’t even know that she’s shoving my sister and I in the middle of it.
So my mom has been making snide comments about my dad all day long. And I love my dad, yeah he can be a dick sometimes but so can my mom. And then when I call her out that she is trying to turn me against my dad, she throws it in my face that I don’t appreciate your opinion. Yeah, I don’t appreciate the “Let’s slam your dad” opinion.
And all this is on the tail end of some crack-attack my mom had where she thinks I screamed at her about something for yearbook. Apparently this was on one of the days where I was having severe abdominal pain and a fever for three days. I was sick so I think it gives me a little leeway to be left the fuck alone.
Then she jacks my computer without my permission, the one I bought on my own with my own money, and deletes my entire set internet files so I have spent all weekend trying to reset it.
So all in all: Mommy dearest, please fuck off until you get your head straight and respect my opinions and my place as your daughter and one who looks up to you because until then, your pretty much a skank.
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| Family Time...great |
[19 Feb 2008|12:00am] |
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So I just spent the entire day, in a car, with my parents, driving to West Virginia…yeah, it’s that bad.
I woke up this morning, early so that way I could get all of my homework done (because I had to work Saturday and I had my family birthday party on Sunday) and I go downstairs and mom gets up in my face and says “You wanna go to Shepherd today?” I’m like “…no"
And then I go up to my room to do work and she comes up into my room and says “Why are you hiding up here and why don’t you want to go tour this campus?” Now apart from the fact that I know I am going to UMBC, I got accepted, but there is something that is not really attractive about spending 4 hours in a car with my family. But apparently I have no say in my future, so the next thing I know I’m in a car with a dead mp3 battery while my parents bicker endlessly about driving.
And I go to the campus and my mom says “Um, I don’t like it here, you’re not going here” and then we spend the rest of the ride home my mom trying to tell me to go to Villa Julie because they offered me half tuition. But I don’t want to go to Villa Julie, I want the computer science/gaming program of UMBC. But since I apparently have no choice in the matter, I can guarantee that my mom will still want my input and refuse to take it into consideration
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| Last week |
[10 Feb 2008|08:24pm] |
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So last week was awesome. That last 24% of homework actually took 8 hours. But I'm done the project, wanna see?
Needless to say we had off Monday and we got rained out on Friday. Basically what happened is we haven’t used any snow days so when it was rainy and cold, they gave us off. And it was awesome because it allowed me to go shopping for shoes for Stacie’s party.
OMG STACIE’S PARTY!! Her DJ was awesome and he played WTTBP and Build me Up Buttercup because he’s awesome. He didn’t play Under Pressure, which is Robbie’s and my song, but he did play Sandstorm. I jumped for 6 hours straight.
Stacie and I danced for half the night and screamed for the songs we knew. I also danced with Sean for half the night because he would not leave me alone. And then he had the nerve to call me at 8 in the freaking morning after we got home at midnight…and then he called me all day so I eventually turned off the phone.
But new classes started and I’m like “Engh…I don’t know what I’m doing” But I got to decorate another binder so that was fun.
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[02 Feb 2008|11:05pm] |
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I GOT ACCEPTED TO UMBC!!!! WATCH OUT FALL 2008!!!!!!!
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| Muahaha! I'm back for realz! |
[28 Jan 2008|12:10pm] |
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So it’s 11:30 am on Monday and I am 86% done with my homework (ok so I made the percentage up) All I have left is a visual presentation of The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood (SUCH A GOOD BOOK!!!...its 1984 with a plotline!)
I start new classes tomorrow. I am taking a lot of production classes and basically I’ll have no homework from now until May. WHAT WILL I DO WITH MYSELF?!?! Oh yea, drama, college, world of warcraft, AP classes
I finally finishedthe pink dress I made. It looks fine…just not on me. The collar just looks funky. But its hot pink so I still look awesome. I’m wearing it to Stacie’s Technicolor Alice in Wonderland Sweet 16 on Friday so I’ll upload pics if I take them (pff…right!)
I got TUA 5 yesterday and since it only goes to 6 I’m like “Gerard…I love you to death, but your storylines are so inconsistent that you kinda suck at this.” I also finally kicked my sister off the computer for 10 min so I could scan some of the pages from past issues. I had to wait to use my parents because getting to my scanner I hafta climb my dresser and sit on a chair that I placed on top of the desk…it’s not too safe. (PS they’re all from #4 because it was the most interesting…and all the characters that are cool are there)
Yousendit (because God hates me and will not let me successfully use MegaUpload): http://download.yousendit.com/D312AB3B0796F61E
Okay so gotta work on that last 24% of homework…see ya!</div>
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[18 Jan 2008|07:49am] |
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Melt With You - Modern English |
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Laura had tech interviews Tuesday…she didn’t get tech supervisor, Mary did. Not that Mary didn’t deserve it, it’s just that this is Laura’s senior year and she got screwed over like the rest of us. And apparently Delise (who doesn’t even know Mary’s last name) pushed for Mary because he wants her for next year. He also alienated Kim and Adam who have done all they could for 4 years. It just sucks that Delise has screwed us all over in drama this year. I mean, Laura, Eric, Robbie…it also sucks that Ms. D isn’t here to keep him in check.
And the director’s aren’t helping. They aren’t even trying to hide the fact that this is Eric’s show. God forbid Eric be put into any uncomfortable position. God forbid he try to lean his goddamned lines for choreography. And yeah he was sick, but while laid up I think that he could have at least tried to keep up with his schoolwork. Plus, I either broke or really sprained my ankle (okay, I was jumping around like an idiot) so I can’t walk, I sewed my finger first mod, and I’M STILL SICK!!!! I have a chapter of history to read, and I don’t want to because that class is CRAP!!!
At least Students LIGHT is going well. I’m done that video and it’s on youtube if you wanna see it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KXWtKSbHHxU
Change for Change starts Monday if Stacie can get a meeting with Cockley because “APPRENTLY” HE doesn’t want to save the world.
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[11 Jan 2008|10:01pm] |
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| Just follow the links |
[07 Jan 2008|10:25pm] |
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http://tickets.ramsheadlive.com/default.asp?SearchMonth=5%2F28%2F2008&monthsubmit=x&MV=5%2F28%2F2008
I will sell my soul to whatever higher power there may be to go to this show. I want to see MSI like there is no freaking tomorrow.
AND!!!!!
http://tickets.ramsheadlive.com/default.asp?SearchMonth=2/28/2008&MV=2/12/2008&sel=x
NEW YORK DOLLS!!! EPICNESS IN THE MAKING!!!
And then Linkin Park is at the First Mariner Arena February 22nd. I will give a kidney for tickets to these shows. And if Bowie came to town I would give up my comic collections. You don’t even know the things I would do for MCR tickets.
I would geek out if I got go.But I’m not taking dad and going alone is out of the question.I may take the girl I proposed to when I went to the movies and Stacie.BUT if it’s 18+ only (MSI maybe?) I can’t take them!! GRRR!!! WHY DO THE CONCERT GODS CURSE ME WITH FALSE HOPES AND GALLSTONES?!?!?!? (maybe I should invoke the Muse more often…now which was the muse of bad-ass music shows?)</div>
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| Merry Christmas to All...Eh, you know the rest |
[25 Dec 2007|11:10pm] |
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So I just sorta think I may be dying. Who gets sick for Christmas? And I felt really bad because we had all of my family over and I was like “Hey everyone!…g’night” and I took a nap in the basement. But seriously, had I been near people, heads would have rolled
I got Guitar Hero today…how cool is this game? It has DAVID FREAKING BOWIE!!! And I took up WoW again because it’s a game the whole family can play. But what I hate is my mom is all like “Grrr! You cannot have a Winter Break you must do college apps and homework….grrr!” Yeah, that will happen
And I god CDs…many CDs of Bowie, Placebo, Linkin Park, Genesis, The Monkees, and Nirvana…because I am just that cool and that is how I roll.
So all that may sound shallow, but I am an ill-feeling American youth on the day of selfishness…so there
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| Dear Drama Assholes: |
[22 Dec 2007|12:23pm] |
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[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<so [...] casting.<br>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <So CHS Drama Senior Girls of 2008 have officially and totally been fucked twice over in casting.<br><b><i><u>All</u></i></b> of the main female parts last year went to seniors and this year they all went to juniors. Music Man’s female romantic lead, and plot moving matron as well as the male comic relief will all be juniors with the female comic relief going to a senior out of pity. I mean, come on! All of us have put in our time, we don’t suck and the juniors have next year too! Sam Dixon, our drama queen, voted most theatrical, is not getting to play Marion her senior year and instead it went to a short and fat junior. How does that even happen? Even Robert got screwed over in favor of E.J. But what also pisses me off is understudies. How the flying hell are we supposed to have a costume that can fit dumpy Elissa and twiggy Paige? And regular-sized Sam and supersized Cady? And you know what? Perfect drama-golden boy Eric Kneller got exactly what he wanted. That is just not cool. Cody did better than him at callbacks and Eric still got it. Oh! And this callback shit? They had me read once and Sam read once, giving neither of us a real chance to show what we can do! It just sucks cuz most of us are never going to get the chance to do this again. Most of us will never take the stage again. For most of us, this was our last chance. And in thanks for all the dedication, crap, and hard work we have put into this organization, we just get slapped in the face and ignored when our time has come to do what we want to and to show what we can do. I’m not even sure I want their pity part. What you should have done is cast us in parts we do and deserve. |
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[11 Dec 2007|10:01pm] |
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Sooo….I’m not doing homework again. Go figure. I really need to get on a schedule for this thing. Laura updates all the freaking time. For fuck’s sake she wrote a story about the BOOTH!!
Anyways, I’M DONE WITH SHAKESPEARE!!! I never have to be molested by strange actors onstage again…or at least until the next production ;p. It was fun, but by the end it was the Miranda Mingee show and I kinda wanted to shoot her in the face…along with Robbie and Dan. I wonder if I locked them all in a room with each other for a week what would happen
So I got massive nerves for Music Man auditions for next week. Musical, I CAN’T sing…we have a choice between sopranos singing “Goodnight My Someone” and altos “The Wells-Fargo Wagon”. Here’s the deal. ME = middle soprano/alto (meaning I can’t hit the high or low parts). I want a good part = Goodnight My Someone.Can’t hit high notes/breathe correctly (apparently) = Wells-Fargo Wagon *epic flail of nervousness/confusion*
But here is my major damage with drama now: So Eric’s show, I’ve offered to help since before I left first mod with him. I made him costume tags and I have tried to help without being pushy. So we had music lessons Monday and I stop by his rehearsal because I was talking to Tati and I ask him if he’s ready for costumes. He then tells me that he’s going to have this girl Kelsey do it because she was already going to be with his crew.Now in fairness to her, girl has got mad construction skills, but her style is jeans and tees, not exactly broad.Somehow I don’t think that Eric needs corsets made for his show. So I was like “oh.” and left. So does he not want me there? Is Kelsey better at costumes than I am? Or am I just reading too far into it
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| A real update of I'm sure you don't care |
[19 Nov 2007|11:00pm] |
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I’m a sucky person and I am totally unsatisfied with my life. (Great shitty emo poetry in the making). I’m almost 18, I hate my job, I have no career ambitions and the only really thing I’m great at is I can take every seam out of a pair of 13 jeans (another *angst* realization) in 45 min. So I can go work in a sweatshop in Korea making 3 pennies a week while trying to save the world one poster at time. Oh and I can make a mutated cinnamon apple crisdata and over sized humbug bags… (a story for a later date.) Positives? Mrs. C (the adorable old English woman who helps the Ruddies with our Shakespearian verse) told me today I am a great actress. I was all like “*blink* *blink* *smirk-y-ness*” and I’m crocheting beanies for kids going through chemo for Christmas (and I got economically friendly mats!) So angst aside, here’s my life since I last did a real update. (I do agree my last couple have been faux updates)
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[19 Nov 2007|10:32pm] |
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So Christmas is upstaging Thanksgiving and it is a conspiracy by the record companies. Don’t admit me to that mental institution just yet, hear me out: Radio stations are now playing Christmas songs now starting at the beginning of November. Happy Halloween! Bam! “Jingle Bells”. Not cool? I think so. And it’s not just one station; it’s several here in CC MD. Even some of the stores get the sporadic “All I Want For Christmas is You” mixed in with “Eternal Flame” and other assorted horrible 80s flashbacks. And why does Thanksgiving have no songs? “Over The River and Through the Woods” is all that it’s got, every other holiday can fill an itunes library and a half. What does the general public anti a holiday slaughtering birds and pro holiday where we are cutting down a vital addition to the ecosystem? It’s American consumerism at work ladies and gentlemen! But look sometime that there are only a handful of Christmas songs, but music stars record them over and over and over until I just want to scream “CREATIVITY KTHNX!!” And I have found this reason for the deluge of cheery tunes. Think about it, shopping for the holidays, what do malls play? Music. Driving from home to said mall, what do you listen to? The radio. The record companies really want to cram that cheerful spirit in your throat before you go into the store to ensure that you will be nice and not kill the register workers or get in a fist fight with other consumers. But come on, who needs 56 days of holiday music? No one, that’s who. …I hate the holidays
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[10 Nov 2007|03:01pm] |
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[09 Nov 2007|09:23pm] |
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| Not Straight and Not Narrow and Proud |
[30 Oct 2007|11:15pm] |
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Pansexuality/Bisexuality sucks. I’m sorry but it is true. I always feel like I need to justify myself to everyone around me and I have to explain that it isn’t just one thing or another that attracts me to a person, it’s the person themselves. Take Jaqui for instance. We were BFFs and one day we were dating. I can’t really say it was an attraction, it just sorta happened. And then one day we weren’t dating. And we were all cool with that. And we got the fucking confusion. Totally thought I was a lesbian until I met Eric. True story. Then I saw Gerard Way and thought I was straight and then I saw Lyn-Z from MSI and I’m like “Okay what the fuck is going on? Can we all jus decide on something? Don’t care what but DO IT!!!” Plus living in Backwoods doesn’t help. You know the nearest GLB group is 45 min away? And then I got redneck assholes asking me all sorts of questions that I really think qualify as sexual harassment…that’s cool. And you know that show “Shot at Love With Tia Tequila”? Mom saw the commercial for it and promptly stated “God bisexuals are so stupid. If they can’t decide on what they want then how do they expect to find a relationship?” Okay mom way to shove me further in that closet. But I can’t say that I would change this for anything in this world or the next. I think it’s just because I like bitching too much.
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So I was studying lines for AMND and thought I would share something:
Now I will go prepare for closing night of One Acts...wish me well!
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[21 Oct 2007|10:59pm] |
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I Was Made For Loving You - Kiss |
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So I’m pretty excited.
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